*Otaku in Teal*

Hoi...

Friday, June 7, 2002 11:19 p.m.

I feel like crap. I bitch too much in my blog and I feel like a fool. It feels like Anna-chan (Not Anne-chan) was putting up with me tonight. I should have never asked her if she had read my blog. I feel so stupid. -_-;
Last night Liz-chan was suppose to call sometime during 8pm through 10pm. I had to go for a drive with my mum. I checked the Caller ID. No Liz. I called her, um, I dunno, about 4 or so. She said that she had a headache. I belived her. Then, I asked Liz-chan if she'd call me about 7ish, she never did. Curious.

Feh. I'm proably worring to much. Damn it. I need a higher dose of Paxil. Fuck. I hate worring so much. I'm pathetic.

Bishi of choice

Friday, June7, 2002 08:40p.m.

Well, now I know exactly what type of bishi I have to look for in real life. I suppose. [Dedicated hero type was 2nd. LOL.]

What bishounen type is your favourite?
By ShoSen of Totally Kawaii!

Cherry girl can flirt and drive.

Friday, June 7, 2002 07:53 p.m.

Today was okay. I acted as cabby for my mum as I drove her to Racine and UW Parkside so she could play genealogist. It wasn't so bad. So I didn't get to she Liz-chan. Eh. Well, I hope I get to see her soon. I hope. Or any of my friends. I'm suppose to go to Mitsuwa with Kissy on Sunday but I don't think I'll be able to go. Why? Ano, well, I didn't fail any classes but I didn't get all Cs or higher. I want to have a job in art, cartooning in particular. So, at least I got an A in art on my report card. That's good, right? XP

*Sighs* Oh well. But on a lighter note, I was a flirtee today. Alot of drivers and UW Parkside students were flirting with me. Why? I dunno. Maybe 'cause my hair looked really nice today. I dunno. Oh! And look! I'm cherry flavored! The 2nd most common fruit used in doujinshi! [Next to strawberries.]

Chaos and a useless "lucky" necklace

Thursday, June 6, 2002 06:29 p.m.

Chibi-chan calls me up from her sister's, Nicole's, new house/apartment/whatever. I'm happy. I talk too much [as usual] when I'm excited and happy. Chibi wants to meet me 6 Flags Great America. Eh, I don't care for Six Flags too much so I suggest Gurnee Mills. I tell Chibs about the Suncoast shop and the Sanrio shop. I think the Sanrio sold Liz-chan. ^_^ Then she wants to see Spider Man. This dumbfounds me 'cause it's been out for a bit and I've already seen it twice. [I don't ever really remember seeing any movie more than once.] Then we plan a time, confirm it with her sis and my mum, and then we hang up. I mess around on line a bit and my mom gets sick of it, so she yells at me to do some chores. I oblige [after all, I'm getting to see Liz!]. Then she talks to me for a while, having second thoughts. After asking her repeatedly if she wants me to call to cancel, putting on my false smile and acting like it's no big deal so I don't upset anyone, she finaly okays it and wants to take extra percautions [I won't list thoses.] Then my dad gets home a few hours later, telling me how he's worried about me. He tells me "No, sorry babe. I love you and I worry about you." and granted, I understand. But I'm still upset. I proably won't be able to see Chibs until the next Anime Central.

Wait, it gets 10 times better. Now my report card is home. Gawd, I hate school so much. It keeps coming back to haunt me. Over and over again till I break down crying and having anxiety attacks. Goody. I don't wanna even look at the grades. I hope I didn't flunk a core class. I already have to make up god-damned fucking Geometry. Someone just hand me a gun. Let me put myself out of my misery.

Nani?!?

Thursday, June 6, 2002 11:00 a.m.

I was on my merry little way around the mixed blessing they call the internet, looking for Weiß Kruez RPG on Google. I click all the links that might send me to a RPG, including blogs. I looked here, and there, and back again. Then, I stumbled onto THE BLOG (it's not really called that, I'm just being dramatic. XP)

http://www26.brinkster.com/tkdate/blog/

This chica took the "Are you Seme or Uke?" test. SHE GOT BOTH! I thought to myself "WTF?!? Can you do that?" And I suppose you can. It was just very surprising. I took it earlier but didn't save the HTML code. So, um, yeah. Here it is...

Are you a Seme or Uke?

More crap!?! Doesn't she have anything better to do?

Tuesday, June 4, 2002 05:39 p.m.

Yeah, I felt like putting up a 4th entry today. So sue me. I don't know who you would, but try.

I found this on one of Liz-chan's "stalkees". I wanted to take this test. I like pointless test that have nothing to do with my future or school. It makes you really think and learn about yourself.


***Have you ever...***
*... kissed your cousin? In that way? *Laughs* Nope.
*... ran away? Nein.
*... pictured your crush naked? Ja.
*... broken someone's heart? Yes.
*... been in love? Yes, I think.
*... cried when someone died? Yes.
*... wanted someone you knew you couldn't have? Multipul times.
*... broken a bone? Nope.
*... drank alcohol? Yes, very little.
*... lied? No. *Laughs*
*... cried in school? Yes.


***Do you believe in...***
*... love at first sight? Love: no, interest/lust: yes
*... God? Yeah.
*... kisses on the first date? Nope. Never been on a date. Never even got kissed on the lips. *Blush*
*... monsters? Nopers.
*... horoscopes? Yeah, I'm superstisious.
*... aliens? God no. Well, like single-cellular life forms or jellyfish-like creatures.
*... ghosts? Yeah. But none of the Casper crap.
*... heaven? On earth, yes.
*... hell? On earth, yes. (Ex: School. LOL!)
*... cheating? Naw. I don't like even thinking about it.

***Which is better ...***
*Coke or Pepsi? Depends if I want more acidic (Coke) or more sweet (Pepsi).
*Sprite or 7-Up? Is there a diffrence?
*Girls or guys? Guys, I think.
*Flowers or candy? Flowers.
*Scruff or clean-shaven? Clean-shaven.
*Quiet or loud? Depends oh how loud or how quiet.
*Pools or hot tubs? Dunno.
*Blondes or brunettes? Brunettes.
*Bitchy or slutty? Neither. LOL!
*One pillow or two? One is fine. Anymore is a luxury. ^_^
*Pants or shorts? Pants. No question.
*Gap, American Eagle, or Columbia? American Eagle.

***The Preferred Sex***
*What do you notice first? hair and face
*Last person you slow danced with? Some Mexican guy that lives near me. That was the begining of the school year.
*Worst thing to do: Dunno.
*Best place you know of to go: An anime con!
*Short or long hair? Depends on the person.
*Piercings or none? Don't really care. As long as it's less than 15.

***The last time you...***
*... showered? Last night.
*... had sex? Never had. If I haven't kissed anyone, do ya think I'd no longer be a virgin?
*... have been to a party? Sat.
*... had a great time with the opposite sex? Don't remember.

***What is...***
*... your good luck charm? My gold necklace with the little gold shell charm w/ white pearl.
*... [who is] the person you hate the most? Hate? Erm, maybe Adam G.
*... the worst song you've ever heard? Anything Elvis.
*... the best thing that has happened to you today? I got to chat with my friends.

*...FAVORITE...*
*Color: Teal
*Movie: Dunno.
*Book: Dunno. I like "two" books. Harry Potter and The Hot Zone.
*Subject in School: Graphic Arts (All my other art classes are fine, it's just that those teachers are old coots.)
*Online buds: Chibi-chan, Hana-chan, Kristen, Yueki Tian-sama, Art, Abi, and Ran. (I know I'm missing someone[s].)
*Place to go when you have no where to go: Dunno.
*Cars: Dunno.
*Food: German, Italian, and Chinese.
*Ice cream: Mississippi Mud
*Soft drink: Barqs root beer
*Sports to watch: Hockey
*Holiday: Summer break?
*Season: Summer.
*Breakfast food: Reeses
*Place to go with your honey: I would think movies
*Place to go with your friends: Anywhere.

***Who...***
*... makes you laugh the most? stupid people, including me. *Laughs and sweatdrops*
*... makes you smile? My friends
*... gives you a funny feeling when you see them? Crushes.
*... has a crush on you? Dunno.
*... do you have a crush on? No one now. Oddly.
*... gives you kisses? *Sighs* My mum and my daddy. My friends. (Yes, they do.)
*... do you like to kiss? My parents I guess. I'd like to actualy kiss a guy. XP
*... has it easier, guys or girls? guys. Damn them. LOL!

***Do you ever...***
*... sit by the phone waiting for a call all night? No, maybe for 1/2 an hour. Then I just listen for the phone while I do other things.
*... save AOL conversations? Yes. Unless they're short. Me and my friends talk about some funny shit.
*... save e-mails? Occasonily.
*... wish you were someone else? not really, sometimes I'm very proud to be shy, sometimes I wish I wasn't.
*... wish you were a member of the opposite sex? I consider it occasonly. I wouldn't have to put up with damn periods.
*... want to look differently? yes
*... cried because of someone's mean words? Yes, I think so.

Iowa to Chicago?!?

Tuesday, June 4, 2002 02:28 p.m.

d00d! I just learned that Liz is coming to Chicago, again! She came here on the weekend and she's suppose to come next weekend. This sux because I want to see her ASAP and I won't. I want to see my other friends too. Ah. Oh well. She said she'd try to call me if everything worked out.

*Blinks* Ano, yeah. Anyway... I need to chill out. I proably need a higher dose of Paxil. -_-;;;;;;;

Crappy laptop

Tuesday, June 4, 2002 08:34 a.m.
My stupid laptop keeps freezing on me and refusing to load. I hope it doesn't have a virus. That's the last thing I need.

It's a "school" laptop. I use it in my classes that is. I'm not suppose to have personal stuff on it but guess what? Yep. It's full of it. [Oh? And like no one else in the Tech Acadamy does?] I have over 200 anime pics [on my laptop alone]. And several fics, including a yaoi fic I wrote. LOL! I'd be in deep shit if anyone in my family or tech crew at school found that.

Izzy [a techie] already knows I have it and he teases me about it. We have an intersting friendship. But it's all good. We both like anime. ^_^

Anyway, as for my laptop. I need to get that stuff off of there. I will get in trouble. Unless they ghost it. Then they'll never know. But then I'll lose all my stuff. ToT

Chaos with coconut pocky

Tuesday, June 4, 2002 12:05 a.m.
Hey-yo readers of random blogs.


Ah, fun-ness. I finaly have a blog! I've wanted one for months but I have no knowledge of HTML (I love Dreamweaver!) and I was a "bit" busy with school work. Gotta love that little yellow pill they call Paxil. Without it, I would have had more anxiety attacks. Jebus, I had 4 or 5 this year. I thinks that's the most I've ever had. I worry about not worrying enough. XP Sad.

Ah. Oh well. At least Summer Vacation started on Friday. But I want a job. Well, I want money. And I don't want it from my parents. I feel guilty even when I go clothes shoping with them. LOL! XD Why do I want money though? For cosplay and cons! And pocky. I love coconut pocky. With the chocolate and the coconut shreds and the little cookie/cracker stick. Yum. I should exercise too. I want more accurate cosplays. Not to diss other people. It's just me talking. Plus, I'd be healthier.

God, I miss Liz and Anne. I met them at my first con, Anime Central 2002. (I had so much fun! I'll add my review later...)


That's all I can think of right now. Ja ne.